Forgotten skills

Just a quick note to say thank you to Paul et al on Boards.ie for starting a poetry section. I remember writing stuff on the backs of books in secondary school - I loved English - Just hated the time spent in class.

Anways at the moment its gone 1am I'm sitting in pitch black in my living room (everyone else is gone to bed ages ago) I've been studying most of the night and am stoned on coffee and..well...more coffee.

In the space of the last twenty minutes I've posted two poems "out of thin air" on Boards. They show where I've come from in my head to where I am now...

The new me!

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There I sat broken hearted,
Tried to speak and never started.
I opened mouth but nothing came out,
yet in my head my voice cried out.

Now I stand Now I've started
I've found my voice, the silence - departed.
and if I stammer - If I stop
I don't care - I'm **** hot!

Charlie - The poet I never knew !

Then and now

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My entire body was burning
I could feel the flames
coursing my veins
as I tried to speak out
Lost words stalked my dreams
with classroom scenes and wispered voices

I took a turn - some brand new chances
to make a change - to make advances
I've turned my head, I've turned a corner.
new wisdom - I'm stronger.

Charlie Boswell

Practice - Just doing it!

I'm a lousy blogger! I know! I Blog when I remember that I have forgotten about blogging for a while!

Consistency is the key!
How do you make an effort to...make an effort? If you get what I mean. Getting my head straight now seems to be the easy piece! It’s being consistently good at keeping the physical side of my stammer in check is now the struggle!

I need help with a couple of things I am struggling with; the first is how do I exercise during the winter months? For the summer I used get up and either go for a walk or a good cycle before work most mornings, 6am - It was bright, sunny and for the most part dry. Even when I slept in I could go out for an hour after work. Now I get up and its dark, I get home - and it’s dark. I have an exercise bike but it’s not the same. Has anyone any good ideas on how I can turn this around??

The second thing is to do directly with using a technique to break out of a block. When it does happen - As I've said I can pretty much keep control of my "negative self" but when things do slip I need to be able - and confident that I can break out quickly and effectively every time - reboot - gather my thoughts and continue with what I was saying. I'm going to explore this a bit more over the coming days/weeks (and hopefully get my thoughts and yours) on how best to structure this.

Always..Thanks for reading this and a special thanks to my one new Follower!! hey I must be getting good at this blogging lark!

Charlie